I feel lost. I no longer know what to do. Everything feels empty. I feel empty. Shattered. My mind no longer functions properly. I’m imagining stuff around me. Seeing things that aren’t there.

And this dream .. this fucking nightmare .. of 4 people .. and me alive in a dug grave. It’s after sunset, I can only see silhouettes of characters I know who they are .. one of them is whom I love .. throwing dirt on me to bury me alive.

Today the dream went on for a bit longer .. there was a big group behind those four people. I didn’t see them, I didn’t know them. But in the dream, I know they were there. It’s eating my brain everyday.

No one listens to me. No one is hearing me.